“This Is My Beautiful Show And Everything Its Shot – Slo-Mo-Tion “
Shit’s been pretty nasty for a while now. Been more than a year since I last wrote something bout what I felt. Haha. I mean I look back feels pretty gay writing stuff bout urself. More lik what 14 yr old chicks do. But anyway, thing’s getting nasty n I smell like a caffeinated rattlesnake.
So after crying for a year, bumping into different hippie exams, I get into a something called “icici manipal academy”, lmao! From not getting anywhere to getting into some place that gives me a job, felt pretty grand at the first take, but as dazz pass the feeling gets numb and now I feel pretty much like the douche I felt when I joint my grad coll. Thought both are supposed to be pretty diff, I mean bastards say this is a so called “institute”. But I honestly feel this is just a place ppl r trained to swallow shit. It’s like swallowing your own puke, no wait, swallowing every1’s puke u see every day. Irrespective o the fact whether u want to or not. Haha.
Bastards o bodom I swear. Anywazz, so before I came here, I was so effing happy that imma finance my own shit, but as time passes by, it seems all ruined. Seems like I’m planning my own demise. With people discouraging everything u ever were good at and encouraging everything u vowed to never do. Behahahahahhaha. Bastards make me laugh at times. Life was never so stereotype.
The only thing that keeps me going is Manson’s music and bunch o scream emo songs. Enough to keep that fkin heart pumping some liquid in the fkin body. Swear, the only fkin exiting thing that happens here is “black coffee”. Honestly I don’t know wtf wud have I been without it. That’s like the only drug to keep me human. For a fkin change I feel I’m better than ppl arnd me. This shit feeling never cropped up within me, but yeah, ppl cud be so retarded wasn’t even my sweetest dreams. Haha. I can literally spot mistakes in every fkin sentence ppl speak here. And they think I’m some foreigner. Fuck em.
Bitch I wanted an fkin new lens, a HDD, a fkin Cadillac 64 Eldorado 1:18 and god knows what not shit. But ever since I entered this shithole, life’s been a motherfkin blowjob. Money goes in god knows what all shit. I’m fkin least bothered bout cash, after all I earn that shit. Might as well waste it. So what if I’m only known for sleeping in fked up classes and cracking lame as jokes, I’m glad I’m not known for telling shit ass probs bout my personal life. Yeah I know your probs r much more greater, but y the fk put it in a way as if I caused em. Ur fkin life biatch. Don assume I’m alwazz gonna be wid u. And another fkin thing I don’t get is, y cant ppl just say what they feel. I don’t get indirect shit. I don’t like me, tell me! U hate me, tell me so. Don fkin hint me shit, coz I aint gonna get one mofkin bit of it. U fkin burn down the bridge after I cross it and then ask me to fuck off. Like y make fucked up life more shit? Yeah I’m not fkin lucrative piece o glitter, but biatch whatever I am, I’m self fkin made! And I’m fkin happy about every single part o it.
U don like what I wear, what I speak, what I eat or what I desire, then jus get the fuck outa my face! Y waste your n my precious time. Sooner or later I know I’m gonna be where I alwazz was, I’m my room, drinkin coffee and editing snaps. That’s where I was and I know that’s where I’m gonna be later. So u think telling all your probs will make me feel like you’re giving me importance, but trust me, I’m already mindfucked enough to solve my own shit, forget your crap.
Now I don’t even know y the fuck I wrote all this shit. Waste o time.
For u as well as me.
Fuck my life!