Sometimes u jus don know whether wht u doin is right or wrong. Kinda weird feelin. Ur unaware o wht to do n when 2 do. U wanna do something knowin its important for u to do it but still u don doo it. It kinda kills u from inside knowin wht ur doin is wrong n tht so many ppl trust u. its jus so sad. Sometimes what u think is right Is what u actually want to be right. Its like ur craving for something n when u get it u jus leave it.
Kinda similar things happenin wid me right now. I dunno wtf im doin n why a I doin. Knowin ma exms r jus 3 days away im glued on ma PC. I know im supposed to study not the entire yr but atleast this fuckin week.i feel so retard these days. Cant get a thing right. Its not even like there’s some great expectations frm me. Damn all I want is 1st class wid distinction. Those som o a guns won even lemme do tht.
U generally don do stuff tht “normal” ppl r supposed to do. U take 1 damn thing n get so hooked on it n go to any fuckin extent. Right from bleedin to cutting ppl to blowin ur head wid som punk ass metal music to jus kill ur frustration n the person because o whom all this shit happens is so fuckin busy elsewhere tht she aint got no time so know if u dead or alive.
And the worst part is tht when it all ends u realize it aint worth wastin time on.
Anyway this is jus an intro o my fucked up life. Now tht everything’s over I don giv damn to tht gal n who she wid n wht she do. Now all I wanna do is jus live normally which I doubt im doin since ages.
Time to kickass man. This is X signing out.
